Let's Heal Together!

Because here is what nobody wants to say at Bible study: sometimes the hardest seasons are not the ones where God feels absent. Sometimes the hardest seasons are the ones where you can see exactly what He is doing and you just cannot see the end of it yet. And the waiting starts exposing every coping mechanism you were convinced you had already dismantled.

There's a particular kind of grief that comes with this kind of seeing, and I want to name it carefully because it tends to arrive without warning and without a clear object, which makes it confusing and easy to dismiss before it has done what it came to do. It's not the grief of losing something outside of you. It's the grief of recognizing something about yourself, about your history, about the shape of your relational life, that cannot be unseen once it has been seen.